Lay Off

Peter

I know I haven't been writing much of anything here. Quite frankly it is because not much has happened lately at all. So last Friday I got laid off and after I heard the news I grabbed a few books of my desk that were mine and went to the car to have a smoke. On the way out the door I ended up seeing an older guy out of the corner of my eye down at an intersection between corridors. When I glanced over there was no one there. His face/statue still remained in my memory.

Black Lab Mix

The last time I saw my brother and sister in law and their dogs, I had a feeling that something was up with their black lab mix. She seemed like she was getting old and since she is part retriever, I had a feeling that she wouldn't live long. I found out today that when they woke up, their dog had died. I don't know if I have a sixth sense about these things or if it was because her back legs were starting to atrophy with old age. She wasn't that old. A sad, sad day.

Whistle

Every night I pretty much do the same thing before I go to bed. Tonight however, I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth like I always do and I heard a whistle. Something that you would whistle to get a dog's attention. It was late and there was no one up at this time and the whistle sounded like it was coming from the room I was in, not too loud. Makes me wonder if it was my imagination, a neighbor, or someone in the house. The neighbors were asleep as they have younger children, everyone in the house was asleep, but I know I heard it. Imagination or was someone trying to get my attention?

Dreams of the One?

I am currently in the middle of finals and I have been confused about my feelings so I thought it was appropriate to write a post.

So recently, a couple weeks ago I started to talk to this girl I met on one of the many dating websites. She seems like an interesting person, we have a lot in common. She has a great personality and we seem to get along, however we still haven't met since she is sick and I am in the middle of the mad rush before finals. We have been texting, talking on the phone and getting to know each other. She kind of seems too good to be true, of course this is hard to fathom since a year ago, I met a girl too good to be true that ended up disappearing. I think she was either crazy, or she was a catfish. Either way, I am pretty untrusting when it comes to meeting someone online, though my latest online crush seems genuine enough. Here lies the problem.

On Thanksgiving last week I received a text from a very old friend, well, sort of a friend, one of those girls that you have always had a crush on, yet we are more or less acquaintances. Well, other than the multitude of times that we almost dated. At least it seems to me and other that we have nearly dated more times than I dare to count. After her dating a complete loser, one of those guys using her, and abusing her, she disappeared for a while. Especially after the restraining order didn't seem to curb his harassment. She wished me a happy Thanksgiving and gave me her new cell phone. Of course this makes sense, as he would call constantly, even without her answering. Lets just say it was bad. Since last I talked to her about 3 months ago, I have contacted her a few times to see is she wanted to hangout, normal stuff for us as "friends" and I never got a response. Of course, that was because she had to change her cell. Either way, I replied with a Happy Thanksgiving and I guess you weren't ignoring me, to which she responded, No I wasn't ignoring you, you know that. I never did respond back. After all, she knew my cell and could have reached out at any point, yet she didn't. Hmm. Of course I would rather move on with my life rather than contemplating that we could work out after all these years. There has always been something about her that I have never been able to shake. So now I am confused and need to vent.

Meditation: Pizza Tonight

So today I decided to mow the lawn. It is getting late in the season and the leaves are dropping so I thought it would be a great thing to get done. I spend a few hours in the yard driving around in circles, unloading the clipping seemingly every 5 minutes. Needless to say that afterwards I was quite tired, especially after showering so I decided to show when I had finished. So I showered, dressed and laid on my bed. I hadn't meditated in a very long time so instead of trying to find something to watch on TV, I decided that I would meditate.

Sage Cleansing

It is best to start at the front door and go clockwise around the house when saging or smudging. It  is important to keep the front door open to allow a place for the negative energy to leave. Always conclude your smudging at the front door and gently extinguish the sage.

Shooting Stars

Today I have been feeling a bit out of sorts. One of those days when you question your choices and where your life is going. Will I find love, you know, questioning whether you are on the right path or not. I had just done few tarot card readings online and was feeling a bit better about where life was heading so I turned off the computer to head up to bed. I decided to have a smoke so I headed outside.

Who was that? - A disembodied voice

I just got in from taking the dog outside and I could have sworn I heard someone say something. I take out the dog between 11 and 11:30pm every night but this time it was a little odd. I was trying to get the dog to come to me and I heard someone say the dogs name. I went inside and asked my dad if he had said the dog's name out the window, he said he hadn't. I am pretty sure I heard someone say "Molly" a minute after I said Molly, or at least something with about the same intonation. I suppose you might suggest that it might have been a neighbor or something. We live quite far away from our neighbors and if they did say Molly, they would have had to yell it, which would have echoed. The majority of our neighbors also have younger children so they are generally in bed waaay before I was outside. Plus, the voice seemed like the voice came from somewhere right next to me.

Fleeing Energy

So this morning I was on the couch working on a portfolio for school. When I got up, there was a huge cracking of the house, not exactly where I was but close, much like if you run across the room, it was like something bolted out of the doorway when I stood up. I saw something out of the corner of the eye, what, I couldn't tell you, movement to say the least. When I looked, I saw the table cloth on the table waiver like it was in a breeze, yet all the windows were closed and it stopped almost immediately. Very strange experience. I have lived here for most of my life I can I can honestly say that whatever happened was not normal in the slightest. It felt like an energy fleeing, once I got up to go to the bathroom. I stop and wait and nothing else happened, well other than the goose bumps.

Fireworks

I was over at a friend's house, visiting with friends I hadn't seen in quite a long time. For me it was a good yet a bit stressful once the drunks decided to play with fireworks. Especially in a small clearing surrounding with quite a few tall trees. By the time I had a strange paranormal experience, most everyone had left and we were hanging out with the homeowners boyfriend outside by the fireplace thingy. He decided to put in all of the spend fireworks, which as most people realize, isn't too smart of an idea. Within a few seconds I got touched over my face to the point where I flinched. It was like a finger running over my face, from over one eyes, across the bridge of nose onto my cheek. I took that as a hint that it was indeed time to go. I rarely get touched and when I felt that finger go across my face, I knew it was time to go. I have no idea if he blew himself up or not, but a sign is a sign in my opinion.